When Grandpa Said “Goodbye”
Two years have passed since my grandfather passed away..
Even though two years is alot, but somehow i still feel that he is around us, everytime i go to my grandmothers house i somehow expect to see him as i open the door.. maybe it’s because of the fact that “I Miss Him So Much”…and maybe it’s because of the fact, that i will never forgive myself for not saying “goodbye” to him when he was in a comma, or the fact that i didnt visit him in his last days..
How harsh of me, how mean of me..
“I miss you grandfather, i miss your song, your smile, your laughter, your aroma, your innocent looks.. I miss you so much, i miss you alot that it hurts me deeply when i remember how special you were to me.. I Miss you so much that at times, i cry myself to sleep at night”
if only i could turn back time to hold him again and kiss him goodbye..
i would do anything to hear him call my name again..
but turning back time is a dream that will never come true, unfortunately no magician can turn back time..
“I Loved You Alot Grandpa, and I Always Will”
اللهم اجعل قبر عبدالله بن عبدالرحمن روضة من رياض الجنة..
Salam 3alikom wa ra7matu Allah wa barakatuh…
… Don’t u think that the best gift u can give it to him is: waladn 9ale7 yad3oo lah!! And try from time to time ennech t5rejeen 9adaqa 3annah 
First, Mabrook on publishing ur website (Blog) =D Wish u’ld keep up the GooD JoB insha Allah…
Second, it’s not ur fault for not saying good bye to him dear, sometimes situations make it hard to say hi… There’s still something that is more important than saying ur last good bye, I believe, that is to always ted3eenlah and pray that Allah will always have mercy on him and yeda5lah el jannah, then I hope u’ld forgive urself
Yarab er7amah o erzeqa jannatak… Aaameen…
Now, ur blog is added on my blog list, and hope u good luck in ur website, and am waiting 4 the updates
Adree 6awwalt
P.S. Yarab Allah yewaffegch in ur Finals =)
w3alaikoum isallam wa ra7mat Allah wa barakatuh..
thanks alot girl..
it almost took me forever til i got this site..
im still in the process of “LEARNING”..
about the thing you mentioned.. thanks..
inshaALlah i’m gonna a’6ahir 9ada8a..
yezach Allah 5air..
Mabrook on ur website.
it’s nice I like it, keep it up sis
اللهم اجعل قبر عبدالله بن عبدالرحمن روضة من رياض الجنة.. Aaameen
Thanks Big Bro..
:)
regrets. the feeling of regret, how awful it is. now i see why u chose to comment on ‘the missed funeral’ on my page. maybe u will identify with it somewhere…
when my uncle was in a coma, i was by his side 24/7 during his lst 8 days after the stroke. somehow it compensated…or brought a sense of closure in my life. i was reeling from the death of my granny who passed away 10 yrs back. but i didnt get to see her or be with her. they didnt tell me coz i was a ‘child’. i was 12 yrs old and they thought i wouldnt understand death. little did they know.
dont hold the regret. just because u werent there in the last days does not make ur love any less. just pray for them. they receive ur prayers and only they and Allah knows how joyful they become when they know u remember them. there is no memory of the last days. what matters is the NOW. the present. Your grandpa will know how much u love and remember him.
Each day is just the beginning. There’s never really an end. I hope u heal…I hope time heals.
Allah yr7ama.
thanks for your kind words..
i really needed to hear that..
I know that i should stop blaming myself..
someday i will…
but it’s just a matter of time until i forgive myself..
thanks again..