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It was late at night when someone came knocking on my door. Someone knocking my door at this time!
As I opened it, I found my little sister (my princess) crying..
My heart started to skip some beats..
I asked her what made her cry.
she looked at me, while her tears were racing down her cheeks.. Then she spoke, saying ” I’m afraid that I may not wake up tomorrow”
I didn’t quiet understand what she meant by those words, then again she said ” I’m afraid that when I sleep tonight I won’t wake up tomorrow” and she ended her sentence with more tears..
When she finished her sentence, I understood what she meant.
I let her in my room and hugged her tightly so that she would feel my love for her, then she said “I fear that I die tomorrow, I fear that Allah has written my name down so that I won’t wake up tomorrow”
I turned on the Quran, in order to let her relax, then talked to her about the children that go to paradise and so on..
but still, I could see the fear in her eyes.
We kept talking and talking.. Until she calmed down and went to sleep..

I didn’t know how to react when I first heard what she said because I was so shocked from what I was hearing..
The way she said those words, the way the fear sparked in her eyes, made me speechless..  For a moment there, I felt that the Earth stopped rotating!
Her words were harsh.

Even though death is something we can’t escape. But hearing those words from my little princess was very hard on me specially that she is “my little princess”
It is enough that I can’t handle it when I think that I may wake up someday knowing that my sister passed away. Even though, as a Muslim, I should accept this because it is by the will of Allah. But it is because of the love I carry for my little princess makes it difficult for me to imagine that happening..

subhanAllah..
A young child fears death, when she has nothing to fear.. While we …….. I leave the blanks for you and I to fill because each and every one of us knows what she/he has or is doing wrong..