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You see your friend and spend great time with her..  Remembering the great moments together and bring back your happy memories of the school days..
and then you look at her and say mashaAllah.. what a great person is she..  then you start wishing that you were a bit like her..

STOP!!

Never wish to be like someone else because you don’t know how they are from the inside..

Why? Ok I will go on with my little story..

Once you leave your friends house while she waves at you good bye with a HUGE smile, things then start to change., your friend is no longer the same person..

She picks up the phone calls her other friend and starts back biting you..

What went wrong?

She revealed the real her..
All what she did when you were there was hide behind a mask.. trying to show you how a sweet person she is when deep down inside .. she is not as she seems..

I don’t understand why people do that?

What do they gain out of it other than NOTHING!

I am not generalizing but I’m just trying to let those who hide behind their masks to know that not all people fall for their game..

Hiding behind a mask shows us that the person has very weak faith in Allah..
because if that person was a true Muslim he/she wouldn’t need  a mask to hide behind..
instead would be sweet and kind from the inner and outer side ..

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I realized lately that my love for the dunya is more than my life for the hereafter..

A friend of mine called me a while ago and talked to me about things that made me realize how lame I am for loving life when I should love ALlah and our beloved prophet sALlaho Alaihe wa salam..

I don’t want the day of judgement to come when I stand infront of ALlah - the Most Merciful - with my scale very light.. because I cared more about the dunya then then hereafter..

I sometimes wonder, why do people cry when they listen to the Quran when My heart is as hard as a stone?
Or how come when I Listen to a lecture the next minute i forget what i have heard?
or why When it comes to friends and family I’m the first to love them but when it comes to ALlah and our beloved prophet I’m somehow in the middle row..
subhanALlah..

I sometimes wish I could have strong Iman..

subhanALlah,  if i go back three year ago.. I wouldn’t have thought in this way..
instead I would think.. how would I go to the cinema with my so-called friends..
I didn’t care about praying my prayers..
I didn’t care about anything but Dunya..

now , I care about dunya less.. but still..
I know that my heart is attached to the dunya more than Allah..

May ALlah forgive all muslims..

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I have realized that alot of people around me are thinking about marriage even though they are still young.. To be honest, I really can’t blame them..
I mean even I, myself, make dua’a that Allah would bless me with a good Muslim husband.. 

We are surrounded by a lot of fitan and these fitan are giving us all a hard time.. I mean I really don’t want to make a sin by falling in love with a brother which I know I would never marry.. I don’t want to betray my parents trust and I don’t want to be a victim of Satan.. but with all these fitan people can’t control their emotions and feelings at times..
I mean as a Muslim girl, I want to be loved more than anything.. But the thing is I want to be loved by my husband and not by a man that loves me not for the sake of Allah but for the sake of him satisfying his wants and needs.. 

Some people may disagree with what I say and easily tell me “people can simply control their feelings and think of other things” 

But what I can say is “we are human, we have feelings”
we want to be loved just like the rest.. 

subhanAllah..

what makes things harder is that it is easy for a guy to choose who he wants to marry, but it wouldn’t sound right for a woman to propose to the man she wants.. even though my friend sent me a fatwa that it is acceptable that a woman proposes to a man if she falls in love with him for his DEEN.. 

My friend also told me a story about our beloved mother “Khadijja” رضي الله عنها how she let her friend interfere in uniting her with our beloved Prophet Sallahu Alihe wa Salam.. 

But still, I don’t think it’s easy for a woman to propose to a guy.. because some [not all] men may take advantage of this thing and then keep reminding his wife that SHE wanted him and not the opposite.. 

I know marriage is not only about love and building a family, but about responsibility, raising well behaved and true Muslim children..
Yet I don’t find it hard..
A woman can be responsible if she follows the steps of our Mothers Khadijjah, Aisha and Hafsa رضي الله عنهن 

And still even with all these responsibilities we Muslim girls still want love but in a way that Allah has allowed us, in other words in a HALAL way..
It’s not that we are emotionless and it’s not that we have hearts made of stones.. 

When I look at people that talk to guys on the phone.. I feel sorry for them..
because if he truly loved her he wouldn’t’ t have talked to her behind her parents back and make a huge sin.. 

Instead as my mom [the woman I truly love] always says “if a man wants a woman, he wouldn’t climb the window but would enter through the door” 

It’s so true.. and I couldn’t agree more.. 

But truly..
Will we find a true Muslim guy that is willing to enter the door rather than climb the window? 

All what I can say now is “InshaAllah khair” .. 

And “Allah kareem”.. 

I want to talk more about this issue, yet I find it hard.. 

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I look around me and find people enjoying life in the way Allah has forbidden, not knowing what the future is hiding for them.
Girls wearing make up, wearing perfume, listening to music , talking to guys and wearing inappropriate clothes.. Whereas the guys flirt with girls, talk to girls on phone, guys who follow the steps of the females and others who date girls..

Don’t these people know what their future is hiding for them?
Don’t they know that a day will come where non of these things would do them any good except the good deeds that they have done for the sake of Allah.
Yet I ask myself, what good deed have they done?

There are people around you that influence you to do bad things and when you talk to them about the after life [ Akhra ] they would simply give you their back and leave..
SubhanALlah..
They neither pray nor give Zakat nor fast in Ramadan..
They sin and sin and sin as if the only purpose of life is to sin [staghfurallah, I ask for Allah’s forgiveness ]
} اعْلَمُوا أَنَّمَا الْحَيَاةُ الدُّنْيَا لَعِبٌ وَلَهْوٌ وَزِينَةٌ وَتَفَاخُرٌ بَيْنَكُمْ وَتَكَاثُرٌ فِي الْأَمْوَالِ وَالْأَوْلَادِ كَمَثَلِ غَيْثٍ أَعْجَبَ الْكُفَّارَ نَبَاتُهُ ثُمَّ يَهِيجُ فَتَرَاهُ مُصْفَرًّا ثُمَّ يَكُونُ حُطَامًا وَفِي الْآخِرَةِ عَذَابٌ شَدِيدٌ وَمَغْفِرَةٌ مِّنَ اللَّهِ وَرِضْوَانٌ وَمَا الْحَيَاةُ الدُّنْيَا إِلَّا مَتَاعُ الْغُرُورِ 20 سَابِقُوا إِلَى مَغْفِرَةٍ مِّن رَّبِّكُمْ وَجَنَّةٍ عَرْضُهَا كَعَرْضِ السَّمَاء وَالْأَرْضِ{

سورة الحديد : 20- 21
All these things are the signs of the hours.. Yet do people seem to care?
Do the girls and guys who are enjoying life care about the bombings that are happening in the Muslim country?
Do they care about the innocent children that are getting raped by our enemies?
Or Do they simply care about living their life?
People all what we are hearing nowadays show us the hour is close, who knows this Friday life may end or maybe the week after or maybe next year..
who knows.. Only Allah himself knows..
That is why we should all be prepared for the first home of the after life [ akhra ] the grave..

Who will help these girls and guys when they are in a dark , small in size and eerie place?
The movies they watched in the cinema’s?
Or the guys they talked to on the phone?
Or the make up they wore that made them look like a colorful portrait?
subhanAllah, how enjoying life has become people’s priority..
I am not saying people should not have fun, I am saying people should enjoy their life in the way the Allah allowed us.. why follow satans path?

Oh muslims out there, almost all of the small signs of the hour has occurred what is left are only little..
so please BE PREPARED..

May Allah forgive all Muslims..

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We were all sitting in the dinning room, waiting for mom to set up the table for dinner.. My little sister, who was only 5 years old, was sitting on fathers lap, the two of them were playing with Barbie..
Little sister was attached to father to an extent that she wouldn’t sleep until father would kiss her good night.. She always told father that she didn’t want to get married because he was the only man in her life..
It was a great moment, how I wished if I had a camera to capture the beautiful moment.. I never knew that It would never last..
”knock..knock..knock”
Someone was knocking our door in a disturbing way.
So I ran to open it, how I wish I never did..
Two soldiers were there asking for my father..
suddenly, Someone put their hand on my shoulder. When I looked up it was father, he gave me a comforting tap on my shoulders and a smile to let me know that everything was going to be okay..

Little sister, held on to father very tightly as she feared that something bad would happen..
The man kept shoving father in a way that made me realize that the soldiers disliked him..
Yet father did nothing but stand still and smile at us to show us that everything was okay..
The man suddenly attacked father and kept hitting him..
and little sister cried out for mom’s help..
Mom came rushing like super man trying to stop the men from attacking father..
Poor mom, she flew in the sky and her head hit the table and she lied there unconscious.
Suddenly, all of a sudden, all what could be heard was a gun shot..
and everything went quiet..
All what I could remember was dad lying infront of me covered with blood and sister on her knee’s pleading father to look at her..
”father, father, please don’t get mad at me, father wake up.. I promise I will be a good child.. I promise.. Please father look at me”
Poor sister, for she did not know that father was murdered..
I could not forget the look on sisters face..
My pretty angel.. Her face was always covered by a huge smile..
and now, all what I could see were tears.. Poor one , she was shocked.
She cried and cried and cried and let go of her favorite Barbie.. Just to hold father with both of her hands..
She was covered with fathers blood..
She was too young to see this, why?
why did you have to kill father?
He was a loving father, husband and Son.. Why?    

Thousands and thousands of children in palastine nowadays see their fathers get killed infront of their naked eyes by the hands of the enemies, the hands of those who hate us.. yet I ask my self, why do they do that?
Why let children be orphans when Peace could be spread?
How it hurts me to know that there are children out there who have a father in one day and by the next day you hear their mothers tell them that “daddy’s gone forever”..

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Yes! I was born as a Muslim, raised as a Muslim and will die as a Muslim [inshaALlah].. Yet, I truly wasn’t one.. My religion was nothing but a word written down on a piece of paper [ my passport ]..
A word that was made up of 6 letters M-U-S-L-I-M, a word that had a very valuable meaning that I, unfortunately, didn’t value much..

I Consider my self as a convert, because looking back at my life previously made me realize that I was not a Muslim..
I barely prayed the five prayers
I barely made Dua’a..
I listened to music as if my life all depended on it..
I went to cinema’s..
I hanged out with people that encouraged to follow The steps of Satan..

SubhanAllah, all this and Allah – The Most Merciful – gave me a chance to convert into Islam..

I had a dream that changed my life, subhanAllah.. That dream was just so amazing..
It was a message from Allah telling me that I will soon convert into Islam and follow the right path..
That dream made me realized the beauty of Islam,,

Yes, I only became a Muslim three  years ago, when I was in the twelfth grade..
At that time, I felt so proud to say that I was Muslim without being ashamed, because I knew that I truly was one..

Ever since I converted into Islam, I saw the beauty, peace and joy in life..
Lovely things I never knew existed until I became a convert..
SubhanAllah..
We sin and sin and sin,, and never stop..Yet Allah – The most Merciful – still gives us another chance..

So now I tell my friends, just because you are raised as a muslim doesn’t make you one.. To be a Muslim, is to get away from all what angers Allah and follow the path towards paradise..
I am still in the progress of learning more about Islam, because we all know that converts know little about Islam.. So here I am to let all you people now that I am proud to say that “I am a Convert”
so now I wonder.. who will be the next convert..
May Allah forgive me and all you people for our sins..

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