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Who Am I?

September22

The girl stood right in front of me, staring at me in a way that gave me the chills. She looked at me as if she had many things to tell me..
Many secrets that she wants to reveal to me.. 

I looked at her with deep sorrow and asked “what’s going on, why is this happening to me?” 

She simply glared back without any response.. 

How stupid of me, how would she reply back when she is unable to talk..
I looked at her and moments later, I starting shedding tears.. Tears of pain, regret and confusion.. Why? Just tell me why.. 

I wiped my tears away and looked back at my reflection in the mirror and said quietly “Who are you? Where’s candle of hope, whom I have know very well” 

 

I walked away from the mirror, wishing so deeply that my reflection could give me an answer.. 

 

It has been a month now since I have been like this.. 

Away from Allah, away from my Islam, away from the true meaning of being a “Muslim” 

I no longer have the will to do good deeds.. At all..
My intentions have changed 180 degree’s.. 

 

Who am I? 

Where is the Muslimah in me? 

 

I went back and looked at my reflection and asked “Will this phase ever go away?” 

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10 Comments to

“Who Am I?”

  1. On September 22nd, 2006 at 5:01 pm Q8ibloger Says:

    مِنَ الْمُؤْمِنِينَ رِجَالٌ صَدَقُوا مَا عَاهَدُوا اللَّهَ عَلَيْهِ فَمِنْهُمْ مَنْ قَضَى نَحْبَهُ وَمِنْهُمْ مَنْ يَنْتَظِرُ وَمَا بَدَّلُوا تَبْدِيلًا

    لِيَجْزِيَ اللَّهُ الصَّادِقِينَ بِصِدْقِهِمْ وَيُعَذِّبَ الْمُنَافِقِينَ إِنْ شَاءَ أَوْ يَتُوبَ عَلَيْهِمْ إِنَّ اللَّهَ كَانَ غَفُورًا رَحِيمًا

  2. On September 22nd, 2006 at 6:27 pm Butterfly Wishes Says:

    May Allah’s blessings always shine on a person as wonderful as you!

    Rumdan MubarK, Wishing you a joyous Iftar with happiness, health and success always

  3. On September 22nd, 2006 at 6:34 pm 3so0ola Says:

    aww sis.. 8awi eemanik brabek =) w ramadan is so soon now.. so Allah ygaweek enshallah w yt8abal mnnk 9al7 ela3mal

    good luck =)

  4. On September 22nd, 2006 at 10:33 pm Creation Says:

    Sister, stop looking at the mirror .. it might be a jinn or something trying to play around with you ..lol..im sorry .. im just too excited about Ramadan .. RAMADAN MUBARAK!!!

    Who am I ? Im a person who is STRIVING to be good Muslimah !

  5. On September 23rd, 2006 at 2:11 am brotherhood Says:

    salaam & jummah & ramadan mubarak :D please keep me in your duas, jazakallah :)

  6. On September 23rd, 2006 at 10:24 am Safa Says:

    Ramadan Mubarak. What a great time to find out who you are. You know what? It takes a strong person to hold on to their deen…….grab on!

  7. On September 24th, 2006 at 1:08 am DXB_Muslim Says:

    In sha’ Allah this is the season of Imaan!
    This is the time to lift up your spirits!

    May Allah guide and bless us all!

  8. On September 24th, 2006 at 3:12 am z Says:

    …………Ramadhan Mubarak……………
    Salaam hope you are keeping well, wish you and your family a happy Ramadhan.I pray Allah shower his blessing on us all and our iman to stay strong Amin

  9. On September 25th, 2006 at 12:00 pm S-Dolphin Says:

    Mbrook 3laich eshahar :)

    akthery men elthekr e5le9y niyatch

    yzach allah 5air

  10. On April 5th, 2010 at 4:30 am meriam gassim Says:

    you will find your self Allah will help youn just ask him did he ever let you down ,never ,why will you let him down my sister in islam search deep in your soul and you will find that peace and the safe road to come back to Allah and to make the porophet” mohammed” peace be upon him proud ,didn’t he said we are the best” ummah ” ever raised up in mankind.

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