avoidence..
You fake a smile, to show them that you are ok and nothing is wrong but in reality you are a wreck from inside. your heart is shattered into pieces and your bleeding from inside. You can’t show them how hurt you are because you know that they wont understand, they wont listen to you. You get up and head towards the door, quietly to avoid catching anyone’s attention. You open the door and walk, it seems like the path you’re taking has no end, but it doesnt matter to you. All what you want to do is escape, run away and be on your own. So you go on with your voyage, walking in an endless path. The sun rays seem to refresh you, the air seems to clear your airway and the birds singing clears your hearing. You then find yourself bumping into a wall, a wall that seems to be blocking yourpath towards freedom. so you sit there and gaze, hoping that by waiting the wall would break by itself. So you sit and wait, hearing the time tick and seeing the days go by just waiting for the wall to collapse rather than breaking it by yourself……
assalamoaliekum
i had da same situation last week…its da worst condition possible in any onez life..emotional stress!!
Sis i didnt understand this post . I read it twice but still i didnt understand it .. But all ur other posts are wonderful and amazing MASHALLAH … ^_^
Assalamualaikum
Thats me in a nutshell. + Not knowing how to express the twisted, complex, emotional web that has developed over the years from being neglected as a child and basically growing up alone and teaching myself things and making all the mistakes. No one will understand that and basically, I don’t know how to explain it to people. Inshallah I will be alright. JAK for your post, the blog skin is very beautiful maashallah.
Subhannallah.
Happens all too frequently….seems to happen to most people, and no one is any better off at understanding or helping anyone else. In fact we all just make everyone elses problems worse!
Subhannallah, very effectively written.
And $shamo0os$ if you dont understand, then thank Allah He has protected you from such feelings! … trust, its not a nice feeling to have!!
Jazakallah for the post!
hello sister , i have been reading ur posts and they r amazin mashallah …..BTW congrats… wish u a happy life .., n keep it up . mashallah <3