Going Down!
It’s been a while since i have written something in my site, i guess one of the reasons is that im somehow dissapointed in myself. I have let myself down in many ways, that i wonder will i be able to fix what i have done wrong. I realized that i have been very lazy when it comes to working hard to gain more ajir, I have been away from Allah for a while now , a long long time. I don’t know how to boost my iman. I dont know how to rectify what i have done wrong. I know that it wouldnt take much to compensate what i lost by just trying but i still find myself too lazy to anything. It really upsets me to see how i have become, instead of getting stronger in faith and tryign to work hard to be a good role model for my child, i have deteriorated to the extreme . I need a strong push, a push that would keep me back on track again.
saaaaaaame heeeeeeeeere , maybee cuz of masha3′el elfamily u dont get time to listen to lectures nor do anything morning busy with baby afternoon husband comes back o che time passes quickly i was thinking the same way walla knt agol emany wayed wayed wayed ‘6e3af mayalsa a7ess eblathah in 3ebadah like i used to do but we have to come over it we have to
Allah y3eena wallah.
seriously ana ba3ad ma7is ib lathat il 3badeh anymore sta’3ferAllah…
i do everything 3ala il saree3.. o when i have free time i just want to do NOTHING.. aba arta7 ..
we should do something before it gets more serious
nice post ..!! by the way watch ‘the arrival’ …!!
rbi ygwi emanch w yrdch shrat gbl w a7sn
For anything in life, you need the help of Allah. If you think that you can bring back the faith alone, then you will never leave this obstacle. But if you believe truely that you can overcome this obstacle by the help of Allah then you can do it. Not because of you, but because of Allah. Sit one day, with Allah for some time. In your sujood, beg Him to bring you back to the path and to give you light in your heart. Do this as much as possible and you will see the effect. If you do it in a hurry, you will not feel the difference, but if you beg Him truely, then you will feel it.
Listen often to the Quran and try to memorize some Juz. In this way, your heart will be in touch always with the Quran. Of course, always ask Allah to help you.
Listen to lectures by Shiekh محمد حسين يعقوب
He is the best when it comes to dealing with these issues. You can go through these lectures:
سلسلة أفيقي يا نفس
سلسلة إشكالية الملتزم الحاضرة
سلسلة سياسة النفس
سلسلة طريق التوبة
سلسلة اصلاح القلوب
سلسلة ولادة القلوب
سلسلة أصول الوصول إلى الله تعالى
His lectures can be found here:
http://www.islamway.com/?iw_s=Scholar&iw_a=lessons&scholar_id=76
Jazak Allah khair..
thank you alot for your advice…
inshaAllah i will download his lectures ..
Mashallah thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings sis sometimes it’s nice to know that others feel the same way as you do and that you are not the only 1
Asha
Allah never let someone down , so just believe in him and ask him for forgiveness , he will forgive yoo, after all his the rahman , pray ,read the quran ,just stay next to Allah ,avoid haram and then you will feel much beter . Allah will give you all the strength you need, all the best in your life.
jazakoum Allah khait sisters