It’s been a month since my father passed away, it has been the hardest month ever. It seems like he is still with us, as if he is still alive.  I know that he is gone , but because I miss him so much, i still feel that he is here. I feel as if its those weeks where he stays in Tawam hospital for his chemo treatment and will be back the week after. Sometimes, I wish i could call him and tell him that I miss him, wish i could hear his voice , wish i could see his face. but i know that it wont happen. I remember the day he passed away, as if it just happened. I remember when I told him that I will be back tomorrow to see him , and that my husband and daughter will come to see him. Even though alhamdulillah when he passed away, it all was smooth, he kept mentioning Allah and I know that atleast he is now not going through all the pain, but a part of me wishes he was still with us. I love him alot, I miss the way he used to advise me to be good to my husband and his family, how I should not put my husband in debts and how i should take care of my family. I just pray Allah that we meet him in Jannah. It breaks my heart that my father wont be around when I deliver my baby.

اللهم ارحم والدي و اجعل قبره روضة من رياض الجنة

الله لا اعتراض،،