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April9

She looked out the window and kept quiet, she remained that way for a whole minute, the quietness in her made me wonder, to what extent was she hurt.. She tried to be strong and show me that she was accepting things the way they were.. but deep down in her, I knew she was struggling to stand still, to stand on her feet and to show her family that she was able to support them… She raised her eyes gazing at the moon and kept whispering, I could barely hear what she was saying but I knew that it was something that she didn’t want me to hear.. I tried to focus on something else but the calmness in her worried me a lot.. I walked towards her and gave her a slight pat on her shoulders to let her know that I was there for her.. she glanced at me and as she did I could see the pain in her eyes, the tears that she was holding back and the stress that was affecting her psychologically.. It was too late for her to do anything about it and that was the thing that hurt her the most, she knew that she could no longer correct her mistakes.. because her mistakes can’t be erased nor can it be wiped out.. She looked at me and said “if only I told her how much I loved her, if only I treated them nicely”. I didn’t know what to say because I knew that it was so hard to lose someone you love, someone you care about the most, someone who looked after you ever since you were born..
Sometimes you wonder what stops you from telling your mother and father how much you love them, but when they pass away you feel the urge to let them know that you cared about them a lot and that you loved them more than anything.. Seeing your mom lying in front of you, body with no soul, isn’t as easy as people think.. at that very moment when you realize that leaving your mom is the hardest thing ever you would start talking to the body that carriers no soul and say “
how I wish that I have told you how much I loved you” too bad your mom/dad won’t be able to hear a word you say for they are no longer alive.. I really cant understand how some sons/daughters would abuse their parents and carry no regret in their heart.. How can you mistreat or abuse a person who did almost everything to raise you, educate you and nourish you.. Is it because people’s heart has turned into stone nowadays or is it because people think that what goes around doesn’t come around? The way you treat your family is the way your children would treat you so treat your mother and father the best you can for Allah has mentioned in the holy Quran Thy Lord hath decreed that ye worship none but Him, and that ye be kind to parents. Whether one or both of them attain old age in thy life, say not to them a word of contempt, nor repel them, but address them in terms of honour. (#) And, out of kindness, lower to them the wing of humility, and say: “My Lord! bestow on them thy Mercy even as they cherished me in childhood.” 
al isra’a 23:24

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Frightened

April3

I tried to sleep but couldn’t from fear.. I’m scared, I’m frightened.
Oh Allah have mercy on me.. Oh Allah have mercy on me..
While lying on bed I kept thinking of something that comes every now and then, thinking of death.. I don’t know what stimulated this thought but all what I know is that I felt deep pain in my heart, I was gasping for air and praying Allah to take away that thought from me. Yes, from fear.
I can’t imagine that a day will come where I shall die, and my life will come to an end. I can’t imagine that I will no longer breathe, will no longer talk and will no longer walk on the ground but will be buried deep under it. I’m not saying that I don’t believe in death, but what I am saying is that I can’t visualize it happening. I really get scared when this happens because I know that there is no escape from death and that each and everyone living on this earth will die.. Whether they like it or not..
For Allah has mentioned in the holy Quran:  

Every soul shall have a taste of death: And only on the Day of Judgment shall you be paid your full recompense. Only he who is saved far from the Fire and admitted to the Garden will have attained the object (of Life): For the life of this world is but goods and chattels of deception (al-imran: 185) 

We should really strive hard in order to win the highest rank in Paradise 

May Allah have mercy on All muslims. 

 

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Stingy.. Who? me?

March24

 We as Muslims know that it is our duty to help those in need for our Prophet – Peace Be Upon Him- has mentioned the benefits of doing such good deed in the hereafter. However, people tend to ignore doing humanitarian activities.. I somehow wonder why?
What should be happening is that we should be competing each other in trying to win the highest rank in paradise and not compete each other in wasting our money in things that Allah has forbidden or for the sake of just playing around with money..
Allah has mentioned in the Quran:

[17:27]   Verily spendthrifts are brothers of the Evil Ones; & the Evil One Is to His Lord (Himself) Ungrateful.  (al –isra’a)

 

It really astonishes me when I hear mothers tell their kids to save up money for their future and don’t mention anything about donation, contributing in building a Masjid or something similar.. All what people care about nowadays is “saving up money” for their future, as if they can guarantee that they will live until the next day.
Not only that but what upsets me the most is when I see people giving out money, as if it has no value, and spend them on non-sense such as having a HUGE wedding party, buying the most expensive and heavy gold and buying the most expensive wedding gown. Don’t people know that Allah will question them about each and every amount they spend? Or is it just ignorance?
 

I don’t like it when people think or believe that I’m stingy, just because I refuse to play around with my money. I just like to spend my money in the right way. People call me stingy without even knowing whether I actually spend money and on what?
Do I have to go shopping daily so that I would stop being called “stingy” or should I throw a huge wedding party to satisfy the needs of people so that I would stop being called “stingy
”?
I really don’t want to satisfy people’s needs but would rather please Allah for He is the most Merciful and our Creator..
 

May Allah have mercy on All Muslims..
Ameen
 

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“Shall I die” she asked

March5

I looked at her while she was lying on her bed, acting as if everything is ok.
Who is she fooling? For sadness can be seen through her innocent eyes. She looked around, laughed and joked trying to stand still just for the sake of her mother. She doesn’t want us to see her vulnerable.. I tried my best not to show that I was staring at the scar but I couldn’t, tell me how wouldn’t I stare at the huge scar that was on the girls head. The hair on that part of her head was shaved because of the surgery. Due to the surgery, she lost all her senses on the right side of her face. She feels nothing on that side.. Ya Allah..
SubhanAllah.
She was living her live with complete health yet it was all taken away from her in seconds, subhanAllah.. It’s out of her hands and out of our hands. For Allah himself is the only healer.

 Hearing the news about her suffering from cancer isn’t an easy thing to hear. I have never faced such situation.  Cancer a word that strikes you so hard, a word which you wish would not be heard in your house. But subhanAllah, we finally heard it and we can’t erase it. The girl is only 17 , yet she has cancer in her head. Even though they have removed the tumor yet a part is still there because it’s surrounded by very sensitive nerves of her brain… Ya Allah… Ya Allah..
When I went over at her house, I looked at her and felt very upset because I fear that I may lose her, fighting cancer
needs a lot of strength. Standing still in order to face it needs a lot of courage and believe me, it’s not easy. I see how the girl tries to act normal but til when will she hide her fear. 
Today, unfortunately, the girl was forced to shave all of her hair.The little girl cried. Ya Allah.. It’s really hard to know that you are suffering from something in which there is a chance where you may not be cured and may say goodbye to all your family…
inshaAllah she’ll start chemotherapy by tomorrow maybe.. Ya Allah..
How one thing can change your lifestyle..
I really advise all people to be aware of their behavior and get closer to Allah, for who knows.. You may have cancer and never be cured..
 Please make dua’a for her..
Ya Allah, please heal all the sick Muslims..
 

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Crucial Ingredient

March3

There are people in your life that a play a great role in it, it’s like they are the main ingredient in a food in which it makes the food one of a kind.. Without them the food has no taste at all and without them the food is no longer special.. This is how I picture my life without my father.. I picture that my life would no longer be special the way it used to be when he was there..
What made me talk about this and realize how much I am attached to my father is that a slight change in my bedroom made me be aware of this thing. I have removed my old tiny fridge and replaced it with a bigger one and once it was all set up I realized that the change was too much to handle and I’m just talking only about a fridge.. After the change in my bedroom I started thinking about the time when my dad and I will be separated.. Maybe because of death of maybe because of my marriage.. Allah knows from what..
I felt a slight grip in my heart and felt that I could no longer think straight..

I really fear losing my dad, because I love him so dearly although it is not obvious that I love him so much maybe it’s because I’m too shy to show him how I feel towards him..

How can I not love the man who gave me everything I ever wanted and always made me feel special?

It’s really funny how a simple change can make you think of many other serious issue’s.. probably this change in my room would make me appreciate my dad more..

 

May Allah forgive all Muslim Fathers and Mothers..

Ameen

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Bashfulness extinct?

February9

As most of you know that the emirates has won the football game of khaleeji tournament.. To be honest, football and I aren’t friends at all.. I’m not interested in it and will never be inshaAllah..
but that’s from my own perspective.. Many people consider football as a part of their interest and when their teams wins or loses their would turn their country upside down.. Unfortunately what I have heard/seen lately really made me wonder, does bashfulness in women still exist?  
If I’m not wrong then bashfulness is about to get extinct in our Muslim society… why you may ask? I shall clarify my point.. Everyone has shared the joyful moment of our teams victory including men, children and women.. 

Women sharing the joy of victory in a public place may somehow not seem very right, specially being surrounded by men, music and other things in which Allah has prohibited.. I’m not saying that people shouldn’t have fun. It’s just that they should celebrate with out crossing the RED line.. if a girl wants to dance let her dance at home without music.. But moving around in an inappropriate position in front of men is unacceptable.. And unethical.. 
Girls dancing around, yelling and waving doesn’t make them very loyal to their country and doesn’t prove that they are excited about their country’s victory.. What they are doing is offensive to us, as Muslim girls.. It is also very offensive to Islam.. 

What women did has really lowered their value.. It made them actually lose their pride and Pudency.. I wonder where their families are.
How would a father/ mother ever allow their daughters to dance in front of non-mahrams , or yell in an irritating way or wear make up to suit the color of the flag? Don’t the fathers/mothers know that they will be questioned about each and every move their children make?
Raising a child isn’t only about giving birth, but about teaching them the steps that would lead them towards Paradise and not Hell!!  
All what has happened during these couple of days only show us that the judgment day is getting closer day by day.. 

So instead of people doing what they are doing now, they should prepare themselves for judgment day where non of these inappropriate activities will make them any good..  
May Allah strengthen the Iman of all Muslims 

  
Ameen 

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Flash Back!!

January21

My friend and I were having a flashback of the days we spent in school, subhanAllah.. It’s unbelievable how time passes by so quickly.. it’s been more than 3 years since i finished high school.. been three years since my friends and i sat beside each other.. subhanAllah..
been a long time.. I can’t forget the times where we used to share our laughters, joy and sadnesses together.. seriously, we were like one family..
I remember how we always used to read Quran on the carpet in the classroom, encouraging each other to finish the whole Quran during ramadan..
now, after the years my friends and I spent together, we finally got separated..
Each and every person followed her own path, her own dreams and her own ambitions..
we barely see each other due to our busy life.. 

As i remembered the wonderful days we spent in school, a tingly feeling struck my heart.. the feeling of sadness.. and the feeling of a child who doesnt want to let go of his mommy on his first day of school..
the memory of the old days made me think about the day when I will really let go of my friends and take a very different path.. a unique path.. a path where i will never see my friends, family or foe’s ever again..

if now, in the dunya we all went in different paths, what about the day when we all die?
we will certainly never see each other again.. not even in a million years in the dunya..

remembering such things brings, at times, sadness to me.. because i think.. time is passing by quickly so what have i prepared for my hereafter?

I really miss the school days.. I miss the fun.. subhanAllah..
time’s ticking hastily while we are doing nothing to benefit ourselves in our graves..

 May Allah forgive all muslims..
ameen

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A Story about Greed

January20

I was blessed with everything a guy ever wanted; money, beauty and so on. Even though I had it all yet I asked for more.
The greed in me made me dig for more things like a hungry wolf digging into the flesh of his prey.
I neglected a crucial factor which was thanking Allah” for his blessings.
It never came to me that my greed would someday make me a trap.
It wasn’t until I heard the news about gambling; when I was told that I could gain triple the money I owned now. The word “triple the amount” blinded me in a way that made me risk my money and gamble.
I gambled alot until I finally became an addict, hoping that I would be a millionaire, neglecting the fact that my greed was leading me towards a path that Allah has forbidden.
I finally made the decision to gamble on my house and car.
I didn’t put in mind that I would lose it all in a glimpse, because I was blinded by greed. I gambled first, second and third time yet I didn’t win any money.
I was so frustrated, so I gambled for the last time. Unfortunately, I lost everything I owned in fractions of a second; my money, house and cars.
I was devastated.
I didn’t expect that my greed for being a millionaire would lead me to a path that Allah has forbidden nor expected that I would lose everything I ever owned.

-just a story-

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Running Away – A New Phenomena

January9

1 I have noticed lately that a lot of girls have been running away from home, I wonder where they got this habit from. I believe it’s because of how much people got addicted to the movies and to the westerners behaviors, in which they believe that running away from home opens the door towards freedom and joy.
 I find it hard to understand how a girl would leave her nest (home) and live in the wilderness (outside home) where instead of being treated like a princess, she gets treated as nothing. To her running away from home may resemble bravery but it doesn’t. Running away from home, leaving the two people that love her the most worried would not lead her towards happiness. Instead she will be living a misery. If a girl wants to be happy she should please her parents and honor them rather than be a burden on them and let shame haunt them.
Running away from home proves that the girl can’t face her problems and fears; instead she is running away from it rather than dealing with it.
How can a girl be strong enough to let go of the parents who raised her, who have provided her with a haven, food and clothes and who have loved her more than anything.
It is really heart breaking to see that many Muslims are following the steps that should be avoided, how the media plays with their minds and manipulates their logical way of thinking and how people are slowly letting go of Islam. Very tragic.
You wonder sometimes whether people do things because it’s for their own good, such as running away from home because of being abused by parents, or because they find it “cool” and very “smart”.
I really don’t know what’s going on with the Muslims nowadays, behaving, thinking talking like a non-Muslim.. Believe me running away from home isn’t a solution to your problems girls but is a crisis.. You will bring shame to your family, would be a disobedient daughter and would not do as what Islam asked us to do to be good Muslims.
May Allah forgive all Muslims, both the dead and the living.
 Ameen.

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What lies beneath?

January1

You meet people each day, some who look decent and some that wear half naked clothes, you start wondering shall I judge them on how they wear or shall I judge them on who they really are. Unfortunately many people, including myself, at times would judge people quickly without even knowing them personally; maybe it’s because of the way we were raised. We have been raised in a way that people in category A are bad, whereas people in category B are ok. To be honest categorizing people in such way; according to dress, nationality, gender isn’t always right. We shouldn’t always judge people because at times it may lead to discrimination and we don’t want that to happen. 

I have met many people that look very sweet, innocent and kind but when you get to know them better you would realized that you were deceived. 

We should always take this quote in consideration “don’t judge a book by its cover” and we should always remember that “looks can be deceiving”.
We should always try to know what lies beneath the looks of a person, because personalities aren’t always seen because it’s intangible. 

Just because a person isn’t from the same country as you are, doesn’t make them worse and doesn’t make you any better. 

 

We should try to work hard on fixing this flaw in order to spread peace, if we as Muslims aren’t able to think before judging then how shall we gain victory? 

 

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E for Eye

December19

I looked at him through the window in my room, Gazing at him walking all alone in the darkness that is surrounding him, the darkness that he has been living in all his life. It doesn’t matter to him the distance that he will be crossing and he doesn’t seem to care about how difficult it is for him to reach his destination. All what he cares about is answering the calls with its beautiful rhythm that is invading his ears. Yes, he may be lacking something but still it doesn’t mean that, to him, that world has come to an end. Looking at that man, walking alone with his stick makes me realize that even if we lose something so precious doesn’t mean that we should be ungrateful for all the other things that Allah has blessed us with.

He reminds me of “ibn um maktoom”, the Sahabee in our Beloved Prophet – Peace Be Upon Him’s – era, that did the same thing. Ibn Um maktoom traveled long distances to answer the same calls, it didn’t matter to him how hard it was to reach it, but what mattered to him is to answer the calls immediately.
These two men made me pity the men I see nowadays. The men that are blessed with what these two men lack, yet they do not bother to answer the calls. Not any calls, but the calls that differentiates the Muslims from the Kafir.
Just because Allah has taken away from them their eye sights didn’t stop them from going to the Masjid to perform Salat.
The blind man that lives by my house, not only goes to the masjid to perform salat, but to perform Azan (athan) itself. SubhanAllah.

 Listening to him calling the Muslims in my area makes me realize that there are a lot of males out there in this world but very few Men..

May Allah accept his good deeds, and the good deeds of all Muslims..
Ameen..

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Satans Puppets?

December8

The fitna around us has been increasing day by day, and unfortunately everyone has been getting what they want through the path that Satan has drawn for them to follow. Even the ones with strong iman are slowly shifting back and forth from the right path towards the wrong. It’s not because they want to but because Satan has his ways. Satan’s whispers are very lethal, very poisoning and very evil. All what he wants from us, humans, is to disobey Allah, and unfortunately we are allowing him to play us like puppets. Satan has been controlling the minds, hearts and feelings of people. Whether they were Muslims or not, all what Satan wants to achieve is to simply drag us down to hell with him. 

 

(Iblis) said: “O my Lord! because Thou hast put me in the wrong, I will make (wrong) fair-seeming to them on the earth, and I will put them all in the wrong,- “Except Thy servants among them, sincere and purified (by Thy Grace).” 

 

Surah Al Hijr (Habitation) : 39-40 

 

Satan has made a vow that he shall not leave us alone until we take the wrong paths, just like how he did with Adam and Eve, when he filled their ears with poisonous words convincing them to eat from the tree that Allah has told them not to eat from. 

People have been responding to Satan’s calls. If he tells them to wear tight clothes, they would follow him blindly. If he asks them to remove the Hijab, they would do that in fractions of a second, but what about Allah, the most Merciful, our Creator, the most Gracious. It has been mentioned in the Quran and by our Beloved Prophet – Peace be upon him – that we shouldn’t follow the steps of Satan. Yet you find people running hastily to fulfill Satan’s desires. It has been mentioned clearly in the Holy Quran that we should cover up properly yet people act as if they can’t read and go with what the Quran and sunnah disapproves. 

 

What is going on with the Muslims? 

What is going on with people? 

Is it too hard to cover up, to wear decent clothes and to be obedient to our parents? 

 

It is not too hard to follow the right path, all what it needs is insistence on following the right path. 

 

May Allah forgive all Muslims? 

Ameen. 

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My Duty As A Muslim

November24

Each and every person around the world has a duty; a mother has a duty towards her children by raising them properly, a father has a duty towards his family by providing them with food, haven and clothes, and we as Muslims have a duty towards ISLAM.

 

Just because we are Muslims does not mean that we don’t have any duty towards our religion, instead as a Muslim we should work so hard for Islam. As Muslims, we should try our best to spread Islam around the world, maybe as an individual it would be impossible to spread Islam around the world but what you can do is start with those whom are accessible.

Providing yourself with information about Islam and withholding it to yourself isn’t pleasant, because we, as Muslims, should teach people what we have learnt about Islam, not to forget that there are a lot of people who are willing to learn.

 

Some people may start complaining and say ‘who would listen from a person like me?”.

First of all, that is Satan trying to prevent you from spreading Islam

Second of all, believe me YOU may be the reason why a non-Muslim converted into Islam.

 

It’s not hard to spread Islam. You don’t have to be a scholar nor be sinless in order to do that. There are many basic things that we know about Islam which we can teach others; such as the importance of praying, giving our Zakat, not lying, not cheating… etc, things that we have been taught since we were kids.

 

I believe that each and every Muslim, should start working hard in spreading Islam.. You can do that by giving out Islamic cassettes, Islamic songs ( NO instruments used), Islamic books, post trustful Islamic issue’s and so on.

 

We as Muslims have very important duty, because we carry a crucial message that should be spread. The message that says: “I be witness that there is no God but Allah, and that the Prophet – Mohammed- Peace Be Upon him is the messenger of Allah”

 

So I call out all the Muslims around the world and say “accomplish your tasks towards Islam

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